wth. i've been trying to look for a nice and suitable blogskin since hrs ago but i just cant seem to find 1! then finally found 1 but it's picture has prob. arghhhhhh. nvmnvm, shall continue my search tmr. or later la!=)

ahh what to say. ok, life this few weeks was normal i guess? club, work, outings and slacking at home. nth special actually? nono, they're special actually, but just tt i dont feel special anymore myself. ehhhh?? hahas ok nvm, cause i also dont really know what im trying to say.

stucked. dunno what to write leh. let me think.........






i really got alot to say. trust me okaes. just tt i dont know where to start from. there's so many thoughts and feelings whenever im alone thinking bout stuff, and i told myself i'll blog them when i update the next time. but i just cant rmb them now! f!

i really wanna cry out loud and hard! but it's been a long time since i last did so. im having this weird feeling every now and then that makes me feel breathless and heavy, but i just cant make my tears come out. this is way worst off then crying out loud i tell you! i dont like!

i dunno. nth i do makes me really happy. notice the really? cause i may enjoy it at the very moment but after tt when im back alone, i just feels tt all my laughter was just faking and it did not came out from the deep inside man. it doesn't makes me happy happily. bullshit! dunno what im saying. HAHAHSSS!

i feel out of place. with friends, at work, or sometimes even when im with my closest family. i dunno if im too sensitive or what. yes, i think i am. say what sensitive is a gift! f it! can jolly well keep this great gift away from me cause i dont need it at all! sometimes i just wish tt i was blind or deaf.

whenever i see some very nice and sweet couples, then i'll be thinking when will my right 1 appear. i seriously believe tt every single 1 of us has another partner which is at another part of the world or hasn't appear in our lifes yet. but one day, maybe just one day, they will. so i'll be waiting, waiting for mine to appear. but i hope it'll be soon, cause im really too tired to continue walking on my own alr.

is always just the stupid and stubborn me, that only begin to realise things after they're gone. i should really learn to start treasuring alr.

ok gtg. night all.

me myself doesnt know if that's love. hahas